Knock you down

out in a sudden,i feels that the song "knock you down"-keri hilson & kanye west.So suitable for my mood n my thinking now !

and this really not going to happen to me.*cross finger*

so scare n yet so confused.

dear readers, i hope you guys wont be understanding what im trying to say over here.bcos if u do understand,that will be a big big trouble / problem / mistake for me ! So just read but don imagine n don even try to understand ~ or maybe u can just skip one of my post.hehe ~

i need to write it here so that i can get a goodnight sleep.If not?im gonna be panda bear for like few days.eg:just like last nite..i cant even sleep the whole night.the scene keep on repeating in my mind.and thats bad !

cant even talk to my closest fren.i feel shy !! *wahaha,bianca feels shy..believe it ?*

oraight ~lets get started.IM CONFUSED.and i think im doing the wrong thing this few days.and it shud not be happening.but at the same time i could not avoid it from happening.i felt guilty. (@.@)

sometime when ppl around you treating you too good,treated you like a princess,you got wat u want,nice conversation.aint it just so beautiful ? how i wish i would never wake up from that.hahaha

oh yea ~ bout the scene which is bothering me from last night until now.*heartache* party 1 : i feel good , filling up my day , drinks & food , walking , talking , those kindness ... was excellent. i do miss it !
party 2 : comfort , good , honest , lovable *sometimes , boring sometimes as in no activities or planning *and i hate it* cus its boring.

couldnt help it.that is wat u get after a period of time. so damn boring !! i need to run ! and i need to breathe.

anyway ~ i shud just go straight n don think so much,cus this is not going to happen.plus i shud not brake or "U" Turn in the first place.So just keep going !! come on ~ FOCUS FOCUS !! *slap slap*

sighed * hummmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmpppppppppphhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~

HELLO MR FUN ? WHERE ARE YOU ? I NEED YOU BADLY ! I NEED YOU TO ENTERTAINS ME!

so,i guess is enuff n shud stop here. its 1.48am now.i need to work tomoro.Flight MH 3267....here i come..